The weather is still hot, but it's just starting to cool down enough later in the day for me to run outside. I haven't done a good run outside in months, so when I got a small taste of it at the Survivor mud run on Saturday, I wanted more.
I have appeared nonexistent on here but I assure you, I have been alive and well. During the summer, I was working out or doing some kind of active sport about 5 times a week. I would love to be able to boast that I have completely transformed my body; slimmed down and toned up. Unfortunately, this is not the case. The past couple months, I have remained the exact same size and shape. I can feel the muscles and I feel stronger but it's all remaining under this shell of fat, so to speak. To keep myself from going insane, I've simply chosen to not step on the scale. I wish this was good enough, but what's really bringing me down is my lack of energy. I want to sleep all the time and there are moments in my day that I have found myself completely checked out, going through the motions but having no real excitement or feelings for it is I am experiencing.
This is why I finally made a dr appointment. I went in today and he said I should do some blood work. I hope I can get that done soon and figure out what the heck is wrong with me. Even if I don't start loosing weight, I just want to have energy and feel alive again.
So tired and much homework to do, so I shall post more later in regards to pictures from the mud run and (possibly?) results from the blood work.
Til then...
