The weather is still hot, but it's just starting to cool down enough later in the day for me to run outside. I haven't done a good run outside in months, so when I got a small taste of it at the Survivor mud run on Saturday, I wanted more.
I have appeared nonexistent on here but I assure you, I have been alive and well. During the summer, I was working out or doing some kind of active sport about 5 times a week. I would love to be able to boast that I have completely transformed my body; slimmed down and toned up. Unfortunately, this is not the case. The past couple months, I have remained the exact same size and shape. I can feel the muscles and I feel stronger but it's all remaining under this shell of fat, so to speak. To keep myself from going insane, I've simply chosen to not step on the scale. I wish this was good enough, but what's really bringing me down is my lack of energy. I want to sleep all the time and there are moments in my day that I have found myself completely checked out, going through the motions but having no real excitement or feelings for it is I am experiencing.
This is why I finally made a dr appointment. I went in today and he said I should do some blood work. I hope I can get that done soon and figure out what the heck is wrong with me. Even if I don't start loosing weight, I just want to have energy and feel alive again.
So tired and much homework to do, so I shall post more later in regards to pictures from the mud run and (possibly?) results from the blood work.
Til then...
Okay, first of all, you HAVE transformed your body and you look amazing! Secondly, with your crazy schedule, the fact that you were able to work out 5x per week is seriously something to be proud of. I hope all is well with your health though; it's always good to check on things like that. Best of luck with school this quarter!
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